svhorns, I don't know what your troubles are but I hope you work through them.
Tomorrow I go to the hospital for a bone marrow transplant.
The doctors will spend a week killing my bone marrow with chemotherapy and total body irradiation. The short term and long term effects of the radiation are unpleasant to think about: lung damage, cataracts, infertility, and more. On the 21st I get injected with a donor's bone marrow. I'll have no immune system for a while and hopefully I can avoid getting any infections. There will be pain and one day in the hospital I will wish I were dead. However, my white blood cell count will rise from zero and my body will be as a new born baby learning to fight intruders.
I'll be in the hospital for 4 weeks if all goes well, off work for 3-6 months, have a reasonable return to my old life after a year and by two years I'll now what the rest of my life will be like which won't be like it was before. I'll be alive though.
I won't get to attend any football games this year.
Baylor UMC (Dallas) has WiFi so I'll be using my iPad this first week and we'll have to see if I have the energy after that.
CHHSpantherfan, thanks for your offer of assistance (from the iPad thread). We don't know each other yet I know from your posts the world needs more men like you.
I remember learning the 23rd Psalm 45 years ago or so.
The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name' sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: For thou art with me;
Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies;
Thou annointest my head with oil; My cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever.